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my mind is racing but its blank
everything is just a blur
no, i don't remember last night
because i know that you'll just remind me
i'm sorry if i seem numb
but thats what happens when you lose love
i swear ill never be the same
so i just spend time with the new me
i consume me
my thoughts, my feelings, my actions
my heart, my soul, my mind
my existence...
im in the center of my own storm
blinded by the people,my ego,my pride,my issues,my hurt,my hate, my past,my future,ambitions,goals and dreams surround me
spin around me
lift me up
and drop me
the world is in my hands
but i cant cant control the weather
its falling apart
and im just waiting the the crash
because i lost control
and i lost myself
...now i cant find you
but i run from you so that i can save me from myself