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Someone took my breath
But Suffocate me please
Reality is false
So take me to my dreams

I don't have dreams
I don't even exist


I am just your puppet
But I don't wanna play
I tried to win you back
But Love isn't a game

I don't know how to love
I don't even feel

Love is real.
Painful.

Just Fukkin Thoughts...

In a place I don't belong
Scared and tortured by temptation and love
Can't spell the difference between Reason and reasons
Cant sound out the pronunciation of emotions
Scared and alone loud screams and exhaustion, delusion, illusions
The death of a feeling and birth of denial
The constant chatter between consciences
The actions because of misunderstood and irrational thoughts
The confusion
The pain
The internal and external fight
The fight to live
Breathe,drink,eat,sleep,talk...
The fight to walk away
The fight to stay
the heartache
How am I still alive
Am I still alive?
The definition of death
the act of dying; the end of life; the total and permanent cessation of all the vital functions of an organism
Am I still alive?
Alive: having life; living; existing; not dead or lifeless
Have I ever lived?

Empty... This is me.

Bein with u is like drinkin out of an empty cup
I stare at u n wish you were full of somethin else
Painting my emotions for you doesn't take anything
Because it'll remain a blank canvas
Damn...
A moment of silence for the death of somethin that hasn't even begun
You don't even get to stay until mourning
What am I doin here anyway?
I am always just heartbeat away
But reflection nobody gets to catch
Waitin for u to go
Then I'm alone
So I'm waitin for you to come back
Only bc I'm lonely
Lungs breathe air from a tragic symphony
I sit silently and nod off questions that u ask as you politely try n get to know me
What do u all see in me?
Am I inside out?
I see u from the inside out
And I will never know what it looks like from the outside in
So stop askin me to
I don't love you
Not even the idea
You kinda make me sick to my stomach
But ill pretend that its butterflies
And I promise to make the best of it
Get the fuck outta my face
But kiss me before you go
Because I won't miss you...
I will in fact miss you
Over look you
Forget to reply
And still won't when I remember
This is me... Numb...
Honestly
Numb
I feel you... But ill never feel you
Ill remain empty.. But you say I fill you
I apologize for not bein sorry
I'm numb.
Call me
Ill ignore it
Then ill call you
And ill have you come remind me
Because I know you haven't forgotten